For most of my life, I was in self-destruct mode. I chased validation through addictions I didn’t even recognise as addictions at the time — sex, gambling, alcohol, cocaine, and more. On the outside I functioned. On the inside, I was slowly burning everything down.

 

On June 1st, 2023, my best friend of 32 years took his own life. That loss destroyed me. And it became the moment everything changed. A few months later, while running — trying to rebuild myself — a voice cut through my mind so clearly it stopped me in my tracks. That moment marked the beginning of this path. What followed wasn’t pretty. I sat with the darkness of my entire life — starting with grief, then uncovering how broken I truly was beneath it. I detached from society, moved into a van, and lived off-grid for two years. During that time, I faced the root of my destruction: a traumatic childhood that shaped the patterns I’d been running from. I didn’t hide any of this. I shared my complete breakdown publicly — the grief, the collapse, the confusion, the moments where I didn’t have answers. Not highlights. Not lessons after the fact. I let people witness me falling apart in real time because I had nothing left to protect or perform. In October 2024, I found myself deep in the mountains of Peru, immersing in plant medicine and Kambô world The work cracked me open.

 

When I returned to the UK, I received a clear vision: to guide men through the same kind of process not shortcuts, not spiritual bypassing, but real transformation. When I later spoke about Peru, it wasn’t a pitch. It was a continuation of that same honesty. Within an hour of sharing it, twelve men paid deposits. No marketing. No funnel. Just truth. Since then, I’ve facilitated free retreats in Peru, led retreats in Thailand, and fully stepped into my power as a Kambô practitioner throughout 2025. Today, I know my gift. I hold space for men who’ve carried things alone for too long.

 

Men who need a place where they can speak freely, drop the mask, build real skills, and reclaim their strength without judgement.

 

What makes this work different is simple: I’ve been there. I don’t preach. I don’t sugar-coat. I don’t judge.

 

I tell the truth because I’ve lived it.